the talk

i had a loooong talk with him last night. i told him everything that had been on my mind. all my worries… all the stress… all the pressure.

i really needed him to know that i just couldn’t handle the burden of always taking care of everything on my own. that i was close to a breakdown. and that i feared for both my mental and physical health.

there have been a lot of things, lately, that he hasn’t been doing. even after asking him for weeks on end. one result ended in a non-sufficient funds last week for our property tax… after telling him to make sure his accound had enough for the automatic withdrawal.

i was so fed up.

but i think last night’s talk did us some good. i told that i realize that i’ve been really bitchy to him. and that the cause of this was just due to so much that has been on my plate, including things that i have been doing for him.

i told him that i don’t want to be like that to him. and that i feared that if we continue on like this, we will surely end in divorce.

i made sure he knew that i was not bringing up divorce as a threat. just that it was a reality that i did not want.

i think i was able to talk to him last night in a way that didn’t go to those ugly, lashing, vindictive and angry words that i’ve done in the past.

and i think because of that, he actually listened.

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